Monday, July 3, 2017

Blog update - What I've been up to, anxiety, surgery, and the future of my Blog

Well as you can see from the title this is just going to be a little life update. 

It's been about a year since I last posted anything to my blog. When I first started this blog I was very nervous about putting myself, my thoughts, and opinions out there, but at the same time I was also excited about doing something new and different for me. 

I've always been the quiet one, one to avoid speaking out in social settings. Unlike YouTube this was a place where I could quietly voice my own opinions on something I loved and was passionate about, beauty products and makeup!

In the beginning I was very motoivated to post regularly. I had so many ideas and got into a good rhythm with posting. 

At that time I only had one child so making time for myself and my blog was much easier versus my life today with two more children. Don't get me wrong I'm not upset about it. My kids are my number one priority so my blog has taken a backseat to school functions, sports, family activities, and just family time in general. 

I also had two surgeries last year. I had to have my gallbladder removed. After a couple ER trips they figured out I had gallstones and needed my gallbladder removed. It was the first time I've ever had surgery so I was very scared about being under and just all sorts of other things that could go wrong during surgery. Thankfully everything went well. 

I had my second surgery right before Christmas. I had a vertical sleeve gastrectomy which is weight loss surgery. I have been overweight my whole life. I’ve done all sorts of things to try and lose weight; exercise, diets, pills, even starving myself when I was a teen. I decided to finally do something for myself and started looking into VSG surgery. It wasn’t something I just decided one day, it was a very long thought out process. I am three months post op and am happy to say I’ve lost 50 lbs so far and couldn’t be happier with my weight loss. 

Then there's my anxiety. I hate to define myself by "my anxiety" but it has definitely taken a huge forefront spot in my life over the last few years. It has prevented me from doing a lot of things I want to do like posting here and so much more. I have been in a much better place mentally over the last year thanks to therapy and medication. It's still a daily struggle though. I have mostly great days, some okay days, and still occasionally some very difficult days. 

With all that being said I have been in no rush to return to posting on my blog. I also haven't been buying as much makeup. I feel like I have so much makeup now that nothing excites me like it used to. Everything seems so repetitive in cosmetics now. 

I still love makeup but I'm definitely more selective now with what I spend my money on. I try to buy products that I know I will love and work for me.

So with all that said I'm going to post when the time is right for me. I’m not going to put any pressure on myself to post here on a set schedule. I’d rather just post when I have something good to share or something that really excites me. 

You can keep up with me more frequently over on Instagram or Snapchat. You can find me under lipglossgossip on both.

If you've come here and read this far thank you for sticking around! I hope you're all doing well!!